Monday, March 05, 2007

I make this look easy but...

People read my stories and think several things about me:

One, they decide I have a filthy mind. Okay, I’ll give you that one. That’s accurate.

Two, they think I’ve either done all of these things (sometimes true) or want to do them (mostly true, but not always).

Three, they think I’m writing a script about how I want a sexual encounter with *them to go. Not true.

If I wanted to write scripts, I’d be working for the porn industry – writing scripts.

My stories are just that – stories. They come from my fantasies, my conversations with people, my filthy little mind. Are they things I’d like to do? Mostly yes. But my writing about isn’t to fill your head with a script you’re supposed to follow; it’s telling you something that I’m interested in. Where you go with it after that is up to you. (the ‘you’ being – anyone who reads my stuff).

Sometimes, I think people are intimidated by the fact that I write erotica. C was *very much this way. Oh, not at first. At first, it’s hot to have a girlfriend/submissive who writes dirty stories. But after awhile I think that it begins to weigh on them that they have to try to live up to these people I write about.

Well guess what. No you don’t. I know *I certainly don’t.

Fiction is amazing. My mind gets to go anywhere it wants to. I get to do anything I want to do. I get to explore things that might scare me or scar me or terrorize me. I get to play with lighting and props and inconceivable scenarios.

I don’t want the people I share my work with to be overwhelmed by that filthy little mind they loved just a few weeks prior. If I get a sense of that from them, I’ve learned to simply stop sending it, and wait to see if they ask if there’s anything new.

I don’t think this applies to everyone I’ve shared my work with. But I know it did with C, and to some extent M as well.

Writing erotica is an awesome creative outlet for me. My greatest hope is that people I share it with enjoy it, take from it what excites or titillates them, and explore their own fantasies. Erotica shouldn’t just make you hot. It should open your mind to new possibilities and new experiences. I think this applies to my blogs here, too.

And just as in sex, if it’s not fun you are doing it wrong *smirk

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