How do you divorce your best friend?

So, as I mentioned, about a month ago, I finally made the decision to tell the ex to file papers. Problem is, he's on a submarine, and hard to catch at home.

Well, he caught me today.

I was much more calm telling him than I was when I wrote it out a month ago. That was good. It was a good conversation more or less.

He didn't understand why I was still sad, after all this time. I explained:

I'm sad because I'm divorcing my best friend.

And then I thought about it and the truth of the matter is:

I'm divorcing the angry, selfish man I married. My best friend is still right there, and will be even after the papers are filed.

And then I cried.