Bittersweet

It happened again.

I pulled a blouse out of my closet this morning to wear to work, put it on, and it's too big.

I know I shouldn't complain about that, and I'm really not. I always get a little smile on my face when I have to toss something into the give-away box (which is currently overflowing and needs emptied - again). But some of these clothes, I've had for a long time, and waited a long time to wear. And then I only ended up getting to wear them for a short time. This blouse, for example. It's a tailored, fancy white blouse I bought several years ago, and it ended up being way too small. It's just been hanging around since, waiting to be worn. A couple months ago, I washed and bleached it in prep to wear it. I wore it twice. Now it has to go.

I did wear it today, even though it's too big. This weekend I'll wash it and fold it and put it in the box. But I'll never find another like it, and I really like the style of it.

There are several things hanging in the back of my closet that were a bit too small when I bought them. I guess this weekend I'll run through those and see how many of them fit now. I know a few of those, I'll be happy to add to the 'wear' side of my closet.

Which brings up something else: I'm in the market for a new corset.

Several years ago, while living in California, after breaking up with M, I bought a corset at the San Francisco Fetish Flea Market. It's gorgeous red and black, and for years it fit me perfectly. I haven't had it on for many years, and this weekend I'll get it out of the toybag and wrap it around me. I know it's going to be too big. At a size 18 it fit me perfectly and now as a size 12, I seriously doubt I'll be able to tighten it nearly enough. So I'm looking to get a new one.

I love corsets. I even love the fake-y corsets that you buy from online lingerie stores like Frederick's. I just love the look and feel of them, and what they represent. So I want a new one. One that will fit now, and adjust for the last 11 pounds I have left to lose (I haven't updated that lately, have I? Yes, I'm down to 11 to the doctor's goal. We'll see how I feel there, I may go for a few more after). I want a custom made one. I'm willing to spend the money to get something I really like.

Until then, I guess I'll make due with ones from lingerie stores *grin*