Identify

About six weeks ago, I had three inches chopped off my hair.

Now, anyone who knows me, knows how much I love my hair. It's probably the only thing about me that I'm truly vain about. But because it was down to my waist, and because it grew oddly right after the surgery, it was ragged looking and I wanted it to be more polished. So my beautician - sweet girl that she is - meekly said the most she'd have to take was 3 inches, then asked again a couple times to make sure I was sure before she put the scissors anywhere near me.

It truly did look awesome when she was done. She always straightens it for me, too, and it looks absolutely gorgeous when I leave the salon, every time. It still does look awesome, when I take the time to straighten it.

Now, I love the wave in my hair. Don't get me wrong. And when I put it up in a pony tail or in a headband, I let the wave do it's thing. I think it looks great.

But when I want to wear it down like I plan to for the wedding tomorrow, I straighten it out.

I struggled with wanting to cut it though. Because for so long, I have been "The girl with the long blonde hair". So I wondered if I cut it, would I lose part of what I've been?

I gave up saying that I was a submissive. While I believe that I have strong submissive tendencies and I know that being submissive to a dominant man in bed makes me whimper and beg like a ... well use your imagination... I am not A submissive anymore. I haven't been seriously submissive to anyone in well over 3 years and I can't imagine doing it 24/7 again anytime soon in my life, so I stopped identifying as one.

Do I need to be "the girl with the long blond hair"? No.

No. I think there's plenty of other things about me that are far more interesting than the 3 inches of hair I left laying on the beauty salon floor. I don't need to be identified by any one or two things.

Thank goodness *grin*