The other question I was left with yesterday was this: How would I feel about C getting a hard-on while he was punishing me and making me cry?

There are actually two separate issues there. Getting excited during a punishment, and getting excited from making me cry.

I’ve given this some thought since yesterday, as I’m prone to do. And what I’ve come up with is “I won’t know until it happens.” It’s an obscure thought right now – a position I can’t put myself in, because I have no prior experience with anything like this. Sometimes, I can at least put myself partially in the position of a future experience, but in this case, I can’t seem to get there. So I’ll leave this one here, and wait to dissect it until it actually happens – if it does.

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