Feeling Open

...being open to new ideas.

Mmmm...I love a good clarity moment.

See,last year at this time, I was a walking disaster area with my weight out of control and my struggling to see if my marriage wasn't worth saving (apparently, it wasn't). I couldn't write (which is worse than no sex for me - almost). I couldn't sleep. I was struggling with some big personal issues that needed a good single-tailing.

And they got it. Believe me.

And now that that's all over and done with by 3 months or more (well, okay, most of it is - I'm still working on my weight but that's a process -- 84 pounds off since then, still going strong), it's time for the old Sola to make yet another step into the here and now.

So, I have this friend, see. And he lives a long way from me, and is always desperately trying to get a picture of my tits. *snicker*. I'm not the kind of person who takes those pictures of myself - it's never felt right to do so, and it just feels - weird. Not bad - just weird.

But tonight, I took some *grin*

Oh, not full on porn pictures. No, I'm a little more creative than that. But more than cleavage and a little more risque than I can say I've ever taken of myself. (he actually got partial nipple!)

And I took some straighter ones, too for the profiles. I take new ones every month, as I look different and feel better every month.

He was blown away that I finally did it. And I have to say, so was I.

I gotta say, clarity and opening yourself up to new things is a good thing ~